Quarterly Review!

I need to take a couple of shots first before I do my quarterly review.

The beginning of the year has been slow, with promise, but slow. So slow being self employed feels a lot like unemployment (trust me). I’ve done some considerable amount of work but still, I feel that I am behind on my target(s).

Am I thrilled? No? Disappointed? Not so much. Hopeful? Let’s toast to that.

I sat down and tried to archive work that I have done and was surprised at the load, but then, why is it I am in a relative and constant state of brokeness? I shut down the restaurant, right? I shouldn’t be leaking money?

Anyway, that aside, I applied for a job seeing as this self employed thing is not working out and I should be starting soon. Soon being relative in terms of contract inception and commencement. So, in about a week or two, I should be at the new job. I am happy. I hope that the third time is indeed my lucky charm. Working has never been a good experience especially in an environment that doesn’t have minimum wage. And bosses who promise to ‘pay’ but what do I know about the private sector? Lool!

That being said, I am also thinking about furthering my studies. Blame it on the old man. My old man applied for the title professor, which he claims he should have already gotten if it weren’t for the missive and relative incompetence that is the Makerere University, so I feel obliged to at least carry on the mantle.

So ‘in case’ and ‘at least’ are not conjoined in any way? Hunh!

So, according to my quarterly review and performance, I’ve been undercharging for the/my services offered and because client loyalty is better than any short term financial returns, I am stuck in this rut. But I know I will make it out thanks again to client loyalty.

For those who are reading this and don’t know what I do, you can check out some of my officious writings here and oba here!

Anyway, I believe we are moving in the right direction. That and the fact that I need to work on other things other than accomplishing projects/work. More personal things I guess. Oh well, for now, I will dance to Ojuelegba! One step front, the other in the back.

Remember how I said I would be risking in 2015? Realised I had done that in 2014, so, my goals have now shifted to saving. Saving work. Saving money. Saving clients. Saving myself. Read up and watched some inspirational videos by Dr DeMartini and I was impressed and motivated to move my life in that direction.

But fact of the matter is, whenever we get a bust of energy, it’s quickly emptied by this continuous sense of hopelessnes. Remember those personal things I am supposed to be working on, yeah, one of them is this sense of hopelessness I get, occasionally. Maybe quite often. Anyway, we are working on that. In fact, let me go work on that now.

The Ugandan Way

I had to take a very long and deep breath before mastering the energy to write this. I want to vent so bad that it will take away that Mother’s Day and My Mother’s day are on almost the same day. Yeah, today is my Mother’s Day and well, instead of being a happy one, I am just here musing at the Ugandan way.

I walked into one of these local supermarkets and my mind was else where before I had someone rudely say remove your hand! I turned to see the security guard caution at my hand in the pocket. I was so furious, I almost lashed out, but no, I didn’t. It was useless. It was pointless to tell this somebody that saying please, excuse me or sorry can you move your hand was the easiest way to get me to move it. Were they not told this in security school?

A few weeks back, at a security check point at one of the prominent local dailies’ offices, as they unzipped and checked my bag, I asked if the guard was allowed to ramage through it, disorganising my stuff, and then he goes ahead to ask why I am being smart! Hunh? I am being smart for just asking a question! He then goes on to further check my bag angrily. Again, I had to stop myself from lashing out. What’s wrong with shallow minded people who wield guns and thinking they are entitled to say as much? It was a simple yes or no question! Another guard (colleague of his I guess) goes ahead to question my intentions for asking? Damn it!

Today while I was driving, trying to maintain the lane, a car comes from way behind, skipping as many cars and their drivers patiently waiting (and I use patiently lightly)  to pop right beside me and goes ahead to seek to go ahead in front! WHY? Why can’t we keep the correct lanes in traffic? Be it taxi! Today I also mused at how one of the drivers, instead of using an indicator to notify us that he was making a turn, stuck out his hand to signal that he was turning. You just can’t help but be furious at the Ugandan way.

Hey, I am not saying I haven’t fallen short or even been part and privy of the Ugandan way but I try as much as possible to do it the right way. It’s hard to be right when everything around you is wrong or being done the wrong way. From people who want you to pay for giving you a free service to people who don’t want to pay you for offering a payable for service.

I’ve had it to the neck with this bullshit. I have a short fuse and for the past 10 years, I’ve been working on it but God bless the next rude person, the next asshole, the next tool! Why can’t we just do things the right way? Argh!