It’s about that time of the year to review and renew what we claimed we would be/do/answer to/reflect/achieve in 2017.

I for one had the simplest resolutions. I mean, after two years of excruciating and painstaking brain storming, I came to the realization that when it comes to resolutions, we will always most likely fall short. I failed twice, coming really close the second time.

I just realized that in making resolutions and chasing after them, I was only growing. A growth that was compounded only when I achieved the resolutions. Now I am not saying that you should throw out those resolutions – for those that take it as serious as I do, I am just saying that it’s time to reinvent the way you achieve your growth.

In this case, I am talking about the youthful generation. I barely have the experience to talk about some generational gaps. I am well versed with my own to some extent. Anyway, looking back and reviewing my 2014 through to my 2017, I kept on asking myself one question, ‘Am I on the right track?’ This is a question I’ve kept on asking myself and came to the conclusion that I might just never have an answer to that.

We live in a generation so obsessed with over achieving at a young age – don’t get me wrong, I actually admire that – but forgets that every thing needs time, and patience. We get caught up in trying to be where we should be whilst skipping the process.

From failed jobs to a failed business, I finally realized what my niche was and thus I knew what to do and how to go about it. I realized by focusing my energies around that niche, bidding my time and being PATIENT was a major key. And as time ticked, and I failed to achieve my resolutions/goals, I came to the realization that I was growing. Not exponentially, but I was indeed growing.

Back to the resolutions….those might never really be achieved unless you have a growth plan. A growth plan is something that breaks down elements within your life to your minutest. Mind the minutest, like Brother Martin used to say when we were in SMACK. From financial targets to spiritual to physical, and also the relationship ones. We tend to forget that growth is compounded. Look at it this way, if your hands grew faster than your head or legs, what would that look like? A growth plan helps you achieve this evenly, or rather relatively evenly.

We all grow. Tomorrow, I will be a day older, but would I be richer, wiser or even better? So, get down to the nitty gritty of your life and develop a growth plan for every aspect of your life and see the wonders it would do for you.

And before I forget, ‘NEW’ year resolutions should be a sequence and a continued effort from previous resolutions. Having different resolutions every other time will only frustrate you. But I am sure when you see it the way I now do, you will understand what needs to be done.

Take your time, enjoy the process, and when you awake tomorrow, you might as well be wiser, richer, healthier and happy.

Aha, mid year blues.


Rice and Peas

Oh, that’s what I had for lunch.

The other day, my friend returned to church and the first thing he said when they were asking for testimonies or rather he shouted,”I AM BACK!” Very Terminator-esque but none the less, dope.

I’ve been undertaking a spiritual growth journey recently, that started about a month ago. In this quest for understanding who I am, I sought to understand who created me. I felt that there in lay answers I was looking for.

This year has not been as exciting or as eventful as I hoped it would, well, the cool stuff for me is yet to come. I thought we’d continue on a high like we ended last year but then, my workers were wasteful on site, old clients put a halt to ongoing projects and well, the rest sort of fell into place.

The year ended whilst I was soul searching. I felt that there was a version of me that was better than the one I had right now. And now, I think I am on my way.

It’s difficult when you try to purpose your life based on what you believe is the way to go. To want to be in control of everything is what many of us do every day, and when we fail to control, we then seek God looking for salvation in that moment, and when it’s sorted, we sort, or rather grab the reins from Him. I used to do that, and now, I am none the wiser.

So yes, in this spiritual that was inspired by a friend I decided to let go of the reins. And I dare say, it’s the hardest thing I have ever done. To wholeheartedly believe that you are purposed for God’s bidding and doing is something that I have come to rather see and believe because ever since I started this journey, I have come to a realization that there’s a peace, a comfort, a joy, a fear, uncertainty when you decided to walk down this path. Then again, when you are walking down this path, you are not alone.

So yes, I am very grateful. I am grateful that I’ve started this journey and let go of the reins, and let God do His thing. Am I scared? Shitless! But that’s what happens when you let go. Do I accept? Yes.

Happy mid month!