So, yes, I wrote the email, and felt relieved, but then….bang…you meet the person and you can barely think once, sorry, twice before picking up a shotgun, forgive the dark humour.
Forgiving is spiritually tiring. Like, if you don’t honestly forgive, your spirit just doesn’t settle. And so part of forgiving is acting upon that forgiveness. And it’s starts by praying, praying for them, and praying that they are well, prosperous and happy wherever they are.
Myopic: I am, have been, and are greatly ashamed.
In the process of forgiving, I’ve learnt that I should be the one asking for forgiveness. Yes, you were hurt, but introspectively looking at it, you also hurt someone. When you stop playing the blame game, it all comes down to everyone got hurt. Your hurt is not any greater or lesser. Everyone got hurt, so whilst you forgive, get off that high horse and ask to be forgiven.
Make peace with yourself first.
We are all insecure, and some of these insecurities are caused usually by expectations. I know, we naturally expect, but in truth, coming of this knowledge has taught me otherwise. Previous relationships create tiny ripple effects we don’t realize, not until we are demanding and expecting things (old ways) to be done in new relationships. It’s time to do some spiritual healing and cleansing my brothers and sisters.
Have I forgiven? Yes. Am I acting on it? I believe I am.
And I hope you too can forgive, and heal, and please, do not try to rush the process. Jesus, calm down! Take your time to heal, and surround yourself with people who want that for you, and desire to see you happy. Cast aside your previous norms, come before the Lord and let Him work His magic in you.
God bless you, and preach love and peace, not hate.
PS: I just signed off like I was writing a Nigerian Movie.